Life After Imbolc? Well, of course there is. It’s rather the point of the whole thing. It’s a marker of Spring and is always a strange time of year for me. This year is no exception. One of the worst winters in 20+ years batters at most of the country. While in this area of the country we have a good chunk of winter left yet take heart. Clean the hearth and prepare for spring. That restless feeling that you have isn’t just ‘cabin fever’ but the beginnings of spring and a celebration of home and hearth.
For me this means Maria Shaw’s upcoming Psychic Fair at the Radisson in Roseville MN 9-5 on both Saturday and Sunday February 15th and 16th. It also means the Edge Psychic Symposium on March 1st at the Earle Brown Center. Come and see me at either or both of these great events.
I have made it back! It’s May and I feel somewhat like I have fallen off of the face of the earth. While I didn’t travel anywhere physically I have certainly traveled since Easter. I had this great idea about how I was going to talk about Easter and the elements of rebirth and transformation. Maybe even Joseph Campbell and the Hero’s Journey in dealing with being reborn and how to handle our transformations. Instead I had my own journey into the Underworld. Like anything it’s a number of factors that combine on themselves and in my situation formed what I am realizing is and was a Crisis of Confidence. Certainly if we are the heroes of our own stories (and we should be) then I traveled into the darkness of the earth to battle all manner of monsters and terrible circumstances and at each turn face myself.
I last talked about toolboxes as the skills, habits and pieces of experience that give us our unique method of dealing with the world around us. I worked on a different way to exercise as well as improving what I thought I could do. I worked my psychic skills with tarot cards and the pendulum as well. I had also said I was going to meditate to have better control of my energy. This is where my journey into the underworld began. The exercise program that I chose seemed easily customizable and one that required little in the way of equipment or any sort of gym membership. Well between that and my continued martial arts practice I managed to wrack myself up pretty well with pain and joint issues. The tarot training and use of the pendulum went pretty well. Most people will tell you the hardest person to read for is yourself. I don’t disagree with this at all. It’s very much true because, we as humans, have a great capacity for self-deception. Luckily I have been doing it for a long time and one of the things in that arena for me is to see as much of the Truth as I can. I didn’t like some of my answers but I tried to keep moving forward. The last piece was the consistent meditation practice. Yeah, well that part just didn’t really happen. Upon reflection, that was probably the most important component to my toolbox cleanup and I put it last and when the pain go the better of me I just became frustrated and didn’t do it.
A rapid and deep downward spiral happened. I found myself sitting in front of the TV a lot and my intuition constantly prompting me to get up and move around and then turn off the TV so I could sit and meditate. I was great at ignoring it. As the weeks slid by I stopped writing and just gave up on exercise and my martial arts training was at a bare minimum. Doubt crept into everything I did and my desire to be successful much less my desire to be kind to myself fled away into the dark. It didn’t help that winter still refuses to end. The days blended together and I became disassociated to many things and people that I care about for the month and some. My energy was still high but no longer positive with a number of electronic problems around my house and some dark moods that followed me.
What changed? I had managed to keep myself going to physical therapy and after several really painful weeks we made a couple of breakthroughs that finally brought my pain level down and I could move around again. I restarted my exercise program again, cutting way back on the things that injured me, shut off the TV or at least watched things that I wanted to see that I hadn’t made time for. I kept working on the tarot cards and explored different layout methods, their purposes and the energy that seemed to go with them. One of the shows was an old series I had never made time for when it was on. Man, I loved it! The relationships of the characters; their personal struggles as well as the ones they faced to help protect what they felt were important and solve the puzzle of the problem. It woke me up seeing people making the choice to be good people and focused on what was important despite the fact they didn’t always want to. Am I advocating TV here? No but I am advocating that our attitude about ourselves and our daily lives can deeply affect us. This was why I had wanted to reestablish a meditation practice again in the first place.
I have come back from the Underworld and still have challenges to face. I have a lot of ground to cover physically to be happy with myself again. Energy I have in spades but if I don’t control it or my thoughts about myself it will work against me in rapid and dramatic ways. Meditation is good, no matter how little and the spring refuses to arrive aside from a teaser weekend. Well, I’m not fool enough to oppose Mother Nature but I can keep exercising and training. I can keep working to improve my energy skills, meditate when I can and keep connected to the people in my life. Journeying in the Underworld is fraught with danger but the hero comes out with wisdom gained and some bit of restored confidence.
And chin up guys, spring will be here soon enough.
First some news: I will be at the Maria Shaw Psychic Spring Fling this weekend!!!!! This is event is always a great fun filled with great psychics and other vendors who are there to make it a great event. It’s at the Radisson Hotel Roseville, the address is: 2540 N Cleveland Ave Roseville, MN 55113. This is a great time to get a great price on a reading and see a number of different psychics in a day if you would like to. Hope to see you there!
Last week’s gap in the blog was unavoidable but here we are back on schedule. Last time we talked about our personal toolboxes that we use in out day to day lives and in, what I will continue to refer to as the ‘Wider World. For now we’ll leave the discussions of what is the Wider World aside, except to say that is the world filled in by our intuition and other perceptions that tell us there is more there than I can explain with my five senses. Let’s put off discussions of the Wider World until the beginning of summer, at least for now. Now back to our model of our Toolbox. I took stock of mine last time and broke it down into some broad categories that I like to use. You’ll obviously use what works well for you.
I realize this is the point you might be talking to the screen and saying but I’m not sure what has worked for me in the past or how to organize the things that I know. Well look back through the last blog for some ideas but let’s start with what you have used in the past. You probably have a number of tricks that you use when you need to engage your intuition or knowing for something. What are those? Coin Flips? A pendulum? A quick three card reading with your favorite tarot card deck? This is your chance to go back and remember what has worked for you in the past. It’s been a long winter and for some that means a bit of sluggishness in trusting ourselves again. Now that you have remembered some things that have worked for you examine them a little bit. The biggest thing is how did it feel? How did it feel to just KNOW the answer to your question? Was there a physical sensation that went along with the knowing? If so what was it? This recollection of the memory of when our intuition or perception served us well is powerful and it allows us to build. Now it becomes about practice in replicating your successful experience or feeling using your sensitivity with new things.
I’m a fan of keeping track of my results. It can be a confidence builder. The other thing this will help you with is when you don’t get the results you think or want with a particular tool or skill. You might need to set it aside for a while, find a teacher or learn more about it before proceeding forward with it. This was the pendulum for me. I like them. I think they are cool and I have seen some people use them in very impressive ways. That was not my experience with them and it made me second guess some other things that I do very well. I set it aside for a while. I tried it again a few months later with no real improvement and gave up on it for a while again. When it came up the third time I cornered a friend of mine who is skilled and asked him a number of questions and had him demonstrate examples. Then had him watch me as I tried to do some of the same sorts of things. I was not an overnight success by any means but I can use a pendulum with confidence now. You can count on the fact that it is now in my skills-as-tools toolbox.
With that example hopefully there are some things you can think of tools that you want to develop and how to find ways to bring them forth. If not, as always, email me. The other part of this when we talked about toolboxes was that it was spring and I was taking stock of things. The more I thought about skills-as-tools the more I realized that I wanted to coincide with the season and I wanted to grow some things. Normally for me this means take stock of things and organize. If one of my tools doesn’t fit where it used to I find a new home for it. This might mean that tool isn’t something I want to use anymore or it might be something physically that I want to get rid of because it doesn’t fit me anymore. Once I know (remember) what’s in my toolbox I’m ready to plunge forward. As I said, it’s Spring, despite how it may appear here in Minnesota and I want to grow some things. I decided that some I’m no longer happy with some of the physical things I’m struggling with and I am trying a new exercise regime. It’s one I have looked at three times now (one of my rules) so it’s time to stop reading about it and try it. My second thing is to organize myself mentally and get rid of the huge world stopping bouts of self-doubt that keep coming up. For me this means meditation both standing and sitting, to keep my energy even and strong. This one is daunting to me because it requires consistency and time management. I have a hard time making those two things work together. When I can though, well it’s magical. The last thing for the spring is that I feel as if I have hit a plateau with my use of Tarot. This isn’t to say my client’s aren’t happy with it but I want to be better. I found and old book recently that I had buried on readings and layouts. I bought it somewhere in town, pawed through it roughly with no real focus and discounted it. Into a box it went. Recently I had the pleasure of fielding some tarot questions for one of my dear friends and rediscovered the book. There is more depth to this thing than I saw on first blush that came out as she and I discussed layouts and interpreting cards as sets and in combination.
Now I have my three things to work on for spring: to clean up, organize and hopefully add to my toolbox. The theme is growth. I’m going to exercise differently than I have in the past to improve my body. I’m going to meditate to improve my energy and I’m going to study to improve my skills as Reader. What’s in your toolbox that you want to work on for the spring?
It’s a week after the Psychic Symposium and spring is around the corner. I’m happy on both of these counts. I had a great time at the Psychic Symposium, renewing some associations with people and or groups that I have lost touch with. With a special thanks to all of the great folks at the PranaPath booth, my friend CJ and her kind introduction to Dawn and of course Jean Wallis. The Symposium was well attended and I was busy with readings and meeting a bunch of new people. Thank you everyone who sat down with me at the All Things Energy Booth. In the last couple of years the Symposium is a great reminder that passion, service and prosperity can all coexist together. Despite the snow on the ground it reminds me of spring.
For me spring is a time to pause and consider. I examine my goals and the tools in my toolbox. Since my birthday is in the summer I have some goals that I start at that time and others that I start at the first part of the year, some as resolutions. This time of year is a great reminder too if I have lost track of my goals and to see where they have gotten to. I should be clear in my use of the word goal, in this case. Sometimes I really do mean accomplish X by this date. Sometimes it’s checking on long term things I may be working on. If they are long term projects or goals; did I achieve my goal and not realize it? Am I seeing any progress? Is that still really a goal of mine? Some of the concrete examples are: What is the state of the web site? Have I updated? Is the Blog up yet? Have I learned the second section of the Tai Chi form by heart? More often a goal revolves around a set of practices or use of skills or tools from my toolbox and if I see any difference from using the tools.
The word toolbox conjures up some great images. My dad always had this battered red rectangle of a toolbox that was behind the seat of his truck. It was heavy and it always seemed to have way too many things in it. My Dad has always worked on cars and motorcycles as well being a plumber for most of his life. The difficulty was finding the right tool for what was needed at least when I was digging in it. I’m not really referring to a literal toolbox in this case, even though I would recommend that everyone have one at hand. A toolbox, in this context, is: all of the tools that I use for my psychic and spiritual work.
I have been at this a while so I have a lot of tools that that I use. They fall into some broad categories. One category is energy development. This category of tools is one that I use to raise and control my own energy. A set of standing breathing movements called the monk set. A breathing exercise that cycles energy through the body to increase readily usable energy for self-healing, physical exercise, or to increase my general sensitivity to my environment, it has no particular name. It was an exercise that one of my teachers gave us as a basic exercise. There is a meditation that I use when I am about to do a reading for a client. I use it to make sure that I get information that pertains just to my client and not anything else that may be in the local environment. Another broad category of tools would be props or things that I call tools of the trade. I’m a tarot reader so obviously I have a few tarot decks around. I have couple that I prefer because of the art style or a particular theme they are constructed around. I use palmistry as well so I have books that I have tendency to pursue over and over. It’s not that I’m overly forgetful that I keep doing over these books but how many times have you reread something and all of the sudden it makes a different kind of sense to you than it ever did before. The other reason is that sometimes you learn to increase your vocabulary so that your words have a more meaning to your client. Reading and listening to other readers is a great way to increase your vocabulary too. I have a category of drills that I use to increase my perception and intuition. Flip a coin twenty times and call it, without cheating. How many times are you right? Another category of tools I have are healing methodologies. The primary ones that I have are Reiki and Pranic Healing. These are both extensive bodies of work on how to increase our own health as well as the health of others. They are both effective methods that require practice, good instructorship and a healthy dose of common sense to be good at.
I realize in the last the last paragraph I just threw a whole bunch things out there that really deserve their own treatment. Don’t worry. I want to talk about toolboxes for a while so we’ll circle back over some subjects in the upcoming weeks. A toolbox is a collections of skills, behaviors and often self-taught techniques that we learn from various sources to cultivate our talents in certain areas of our lives. In my case I may have overgeneralized my toolbox of psychic and spiritual work. This isn’t a bad thing. Sometimes it takes me time to figure what tool or skill to use for a situation. On the other hand if I have very few tools in the box the tools I have are likely to be very versatile. A toolbox is a way to organize and categorize things about ourselves for ourselves. I don’t care how you organize your own toolbox but in this time of spring it can be a useful way to take stock of what you have and what you might want to pick up and dust off as you move forward. Writing this I know I need to get back to some daily practice of some of those things from the energy development area again. Like so many things we fall in and out of habits from time to time. It’s a good thing spring is almost here to make me go through my toolbox. Dig around in yours this week and see what you find.
Well here we are and depending on when you’re reading this it’s just before or after the Edge Expos 2013 Psychic Symposium.
What does it mean? Well that means that I have started, after much internal and external badgering, writing a blog. I told myself that I would launch it as part of the symposium. The big questions: Why are you writing a blog? What is it about? What’s the purpose? I think that those are great questions and the ones that have been nagging at me for quite a while. While I have been a psychic for a number of years I always thought I would just teach what I knew to people and that’s how knowledge would spread. We would all benefit from learning from each other. It’s a great idea but the community is fractious and spread out even among ‘new agers’, seekers, healers, mystics, witches, magicians or spiritual practitioners. I don’t mean to throw the labels out lightly or with too much tongue and cheek. The point here is some labels we respond to well and other we dislike with varying degrees of intensity. If we go back to the fact that I intended to teach classes to people this becomes problematic in a hurry. Everyone seemed to have their own view vocabulary and maybe group of like-minded individuals that they pursue things with. They might not have time or interest to study with or teach someone else.
That being said let’s not forget the things that we have in common: A concept that the world works on principles that are more than just five senses can perceive and what modern science tells us exists. Another concept is that we are all connected at least in some way to each other and this wider world that we live in. That much of what is reality is based on perception and that there are various ways in which we can choose to ‘see’ the world. That through states of practice and perception we can access at least some of the information and connections between things in the wider world and ourselves.
Here we are in the present and I’m still practicing, teaching, and learning just like so many other people that are interested in a wider world. When I get readings from other psychics the question of why aren’t you writing comes up over and over. The desire to write, just like the desire to learn, train and teach is there but I have always seemed to talk myself out of it even though Creative Writing is one of majors I graduated college with. Like I said in the beginning of this, after some internal and external badgering I have decided to write a blog because it engenders commentary, feedback and discussion; in short it becomes its own classroom where shared experiences can benefit us all. I’m planning to write a weekly entry that we can discuss and share. The following week may bring a new subject or more discussion and refining last week’s subject.
Many of you will read this and look back at the title of the blog and scratch your head. For years now when I have the opportunity to speak about intuition, energy or spiritual practice I have always given a lecture that I call Walking with Lightning. The subject is about learning to live with our intuition and the awareness that there is a wider world. How we develop trust in ourselves and use out intuition to develop perception and skills to aid us in our lives. I have given that lecture multiple times now. Like me Walking with Lightning has evolved and grown. I’m still walking with lightning and now I’m trying to spread sparks. Welcome to the blog.